I know im horrible at keeping yall posted on whats going on.
Well ill start off by saying ive had another relapse. Ive been battling with depression for a very long time. I know not many of you are aware of what i had gone through as a child. but its caused me to attempt suicide on several occasions. Im back in therapy and Im back on medication. My PTSD has apparently gotten worse. A lot of it has to do with the fact that ive never really open up and dealt with the things ive gone through. Today in therapy was the first time i have ever really talked about the emotions tied with whats gone on. And it really didnt feel good at all ... so i dont know how this is going to help, but im at the end of my rope and im willing to try anything, not matter how horrible it is at the time. I have to take my medicine right? just close my eyes hold my nose and swallow it.
I feel horrible right now though. Ive just taken my pills. ones for depression the rest for anxiouty. So im waiting for those to kick in so i can become an emotionless zombie. Sweet relief.

ON a differant note. I know i havnt posted much, ive obviousy been busy with real world issues! lol but ive found a new hobby. if you check out my youtube site [link] youll see some of the videos ive made. Comment and rate them, comment on my DA page if u want about the videos.
Idk making those videos hows quiet my mind. Ive recntly made a 30mins video for joey. Its a collection of photos music and videos of the time we've spent together. I dont have it posted on youtube b/c its to long BUT i have burned it into a DVD and im going to mail it to him ^_^ i even have my own copy.
Not only is it a cute idea it also helps free my computer of the millions of photos i have on it! Im now working on one for my daughter. this ones going to take longer. im trying to get the photos and videos in order by date! lol i plan on making several copies for family members.

So yea who knows i could turn this into a little business. sounds like a good idea.

Well i hope everyone is well <3